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Post by Maria on Dec 18, 2005 18:38:18 GMT 1
Hello everyone! Today I begin week 5 of my journey to perfect vision. This week I noticed that the eye exercises have gotten a bit easier, and my eyes no longer feel tired or puffy after doing them. I also noticed that is getting easier to experience "blacker and blacker" when palming. Also, in terms of following the program, I find that I start off well on Monday and by Wednesday I find my resolve and ability to keep the program in the forefront of my mind waning. I do the best I can on Thursday and Friday, and Saturday I find myself taking a day off; perhaps doing a little here or there but not the whole schedule. Sunday is my day of rejuvination, where I relax and meditate a lot during the day and reflect on the week just passed. Then I start the week over with renewed energy on Monday. I have been very successful at making a point of concenrating on farther away things which is exciting to me. As part of my "perfect vision visualization" I picture myself driving down the highway being able to see road signs waaaayyyyy off in the distance. Haven't actually experienced this yet but I'm happily anticipating the very first time I do. Had an accident with my glasses the other day. I was dumping out the Christmas tree box and it slipped and hit me square in the face, jamming my glasses into my nose. The nose is fine but the glasses are a little loose and wobbly now. Could they be preparing to make a permant exit from general use? Remember how I talked about that kind of dingy haze that seems to cloud my vision. I think I mentioned that when not wearing glasses things look a bit hazy and when putting them on everything is not only clearer but brighter too. Well this week I've noticed that the haze has appeared while wearing my glasses too. A sign I think that they are no longer working as they once did. Now the glasses didn't change so it must be my eyes slowly adjusting to a new way of seeing. Its all very exciting! One last thing - I've been doing the free online Silva Ultramind Course (a great reminder of all the things I learned so many years ago when studying Silva) and in one of the lessons they talked about someone who would write down whatever he desired 15 times each day. It reminded me of having to write sentences in school (I will not talk in class..... hehe) and it made a lot of sense as a means of positive reinforcement. So I got a cheapy notebook and wrote in it "I have perfect vision without needing glasses, contacts or surgery," which fills one line perfectly in my hand writing. Then I repeated it all the way down the page, filling one side each day. I do this with purpose, centering my attention on what I'm writing as I'm doing it. I have definitely felt a boost in my confidence level since adding this to the program. Well thats it for this week. Have a great week and a wonderful holiday break! Peace, Maria
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Post by Martin Brofman on Dec 20, 2005 16:07:56 GMT 1
Sounds like you are doing great. I would just add that you could focus on the improvement process, noticing what is better than before, even if just a little bit. Can you notice how bricks in a building are discernable from further away? License plates? What is it that is even just a bit clearer today than last week?
Check out the affirmations in my book and how they are used, as well. Focus on a different one each day and repeat it to yourself several times each day, seeing how it makes sense.
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Post by Maria on Dec 22, 2005 19:23:58 GMT 1
You're right Martin. I have been focusing more on the processes than making a point to notice change. I do use the affirmations, in fact I made a deck of cards out of them and pick one randomly each day.
Part of my problem with noticing change is that there simply isn't much to notice. Sometimes things seem a bit clearer and sometimes they are a lot blurrier than before. Some things which used to be clear are now so blurry I can't see them at all without glasses, while other things seem to be a bit clearer than they were. There's really no consistency to it at all.
And yet I know that changing my conscious is key to returning to clarity. I need to *know* that I see clearly at a very deep level in order to make it so.
Hmmm... I have some more to ponder here.
Peace,
Maria
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Post by Martin Brofman on Dec 23, 2005 7:40:13 GMT 1
Be very vigilant for every change no matter how slight - and see what is different in your mind when you see clearly, and what you are stressed about when it is not.
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Post by Maria on Dec 25, 2005 18:15:39 GMT 1
Merry Christmas Everyone! Today I begin the sixth week of my journey to perfect vision. I can't believe it's been 35 days already, and I'm very proud of myself for sticking with it After reading Martin's post on the 23rd, I've been thinking a lot about my approach and realized that I tend to focus on processes rather than results (did I already mention that). Well, with that approach my vision can never improve totally because once it does the processes become unnecessary and I'm left with nothing to "do." So while I am still doing the processes, I'm now shifting my focus to results and looking for evidence of improvement as Martin suggested. Things I've noticed over the last week: 1. When I'm stressed or tired my vision gets noticably worse (surprise, surprise) 2. When experience a moment of stress, especially at work when someone interrupts me I tend to get floaters. 3. My perepheral vision is clearer than straight on. 4. I see best on sunny days. 5. Worst vision is at night....even my glasses don't help much then. Also, I was feeling like my eyes were dirty and that's why everything seems a bit dull and grayish. Kind of like when you look through dirty glasses but don't realize they're dirty and then wonder why everything looks a bit funny. Also, at night bright lights (headlights, street lights, etc) have holes in the middle of them. My glasses used to compensate for this but now even when wearing them the holes are there (though not as large). Anyway, I remember my eye doctor saying a couple years ago that I have small cartaracts in each eye. Bingo! Now I understand...the lenses are dirty and grayish. So in my meditation sessions I'm polishing the lenses and watching them clear up. It's a very interesting experience and I'm excited to see the outer effects. Have a great week everyone! Peace, Maria
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Post by Martin Brofman on Jan 1, 2006 16:03:04 GMT 1
Also, see about bringing your clarity closer to the point on which you focus. What you have been experiencing is called eccentric fixation, and the symptom of normal vision is called central fixation.
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Post by Maria on Jan 1, 2006 18:02:16 GMT 1
Happy New Year Everyone!
I have designated 2006 as my year of happiness!
Today is the beginning of my 7th week on my vision to clarity. After last week, I began focusing more on the results and less on the processes. I continue to meditate at least once each day (most days 2 or 3 times still but at least once) and use the affirmations. I also contine to do the eye exercises daily and write one page of sentences (which I added after taking the Silva Ultramind online course). The sentence I am writing has changed to "I have perfect, crystal clear vision near and far, day and night," which seems more positive to me.
I noticed this week that when driving in good light, my clear vision has increased to about 30 feet in front of me without glasses. I still cannot read road signs until I am right on them, but the lines on the road itself are much clearer as well as the cars around me. I also noticed that nature (trees, clouds, etc) seem a bit clearer than man-made objects. Also, I kept thinking that things I saw out of my window at work were kind of gray and darkish. Then Thursday I took a good look at the wiindow and realized that there's a black screen in it. now I look out the other window and things are much brighter.
Martin, your observation about eccentric fixation vs central fixation makes sense. But I wonder how the physical barrier of cartaracts can be overcome while the cloudiness is still there. It seems like my eyes are forced to focus around the opaque parts of the lens, thus making central fixaiton difficult. Part of what the glasses do is compensate for that somehow.
I do remember reading in one of Dr. Bates' books several years ago about using the eye chart and noticing the one point that seemed the blackest and clearest. I have not yet started using the eye chart provided with your book, and I am thinking that perhaps it is time to do so.
Have a great week everyone!
Peace,
Maria
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Post by Martin Brofman on Jan 2, 2006 4:49:58 GMT 1
Use the visualization to dissolve the cataracts a bit at a time.
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Post by Maria on Jan 8, 2006 18:03:57 GMT 1
Hello Everyone!
Here I am beginning my 8th week on my journey to clarity.
This past week was very rough for me on many levels. I totally let work get to me, to the point that I felt myself getting sick and finally came home Friday and crashed. I slept most of the weekend and now I feel much better. though I'd still like some more time off (like forever *wink*).
I have to admit I didn't do much at all this week with my vision. I found myself oversleeping and then jumping up at the last minute and running out the door to get to work on time. I found traffic to be slow and delay after delay at work has me very far behind. I also seem to be having brain fog lately, so that the simplest tasks seem almost impossible to me. I went to my Saturday job, and could barely remember how to balance the bank statement - something that I could normally do in my sleep. I wonder if I am creating this resistance or if the Universe is saying "hey Maria, get the hint... you need to be doing something else."
Finally this weekend with the extra rest I attempted to meditate, though I found it hard to slow my mind down enough to get into a meditative state (plus I kept falling asleep). I also journaled a lot this morning, being gentle on myself for my lapse in the vision program and looking ahead to a week filled with grace and ease and synchronicity of all sorts, letting me know that I'm back in the flow.
So there was no improvement noticed this week. On the up-side however, things didn't get worse and I still only wear my glasses when driving. I did notice though, that as I got more stressed out, I found myself thinking I needed my glasses and unconsciously reaching for them. A couple of times I even put them on, only to realize they feel very uncomfortable now. Also when looking in the mirror I noticed for the first time how small and squinty my eyes are. I used to have such big, beautiful eyes. And now they're almost hidden by my face which, like the rest of me has gotten quite a bit larger over the years. It made me feel sad to think that such beautiful eyes are overwhelmed by such an ugly face. So I guess its time to start working on my face and seeing beauty there too.
Well that's all for this week. I hereby put the past behind me and look forward to a much brighter and CLEARER tomorrow!
Peace,
Maria
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Post by anna on Jan 8, 2006 19:08:20 GMT 1
Just to say I know how you feel about making progress then taking a step backward. I keep thinking of the wavy line drawing that Martin has in his vision book. I seem to keep experiencing it, but it's important to remember that the general direction of the line is up!!! I had a day of collapse with 'flu like symptoms yesterday, and I was astonished, considering all the healing work I've been doing, but then I realised this morning that I've been pushing myself hard- maybe too hard, and there's resistance there that will make itself felt.! Anyway, I have to say there's been progress too, and now I have a definite goal ( see my thread ) so keep going..You're definitely doing great! Love Anna
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Post by Maria on Jan 16, 2006 1:57:27 GMT 1
Happy Sunday!
Well, the 8th week is officially done and I'm on to week 9. In Martin's book "Improve Your Vision," the program goes for 8 weeks and then you can repeat week 3-8 if necessary. I will continue on because my vision has not yet improved to the point I want it to. But I have learned a lot about myself over these 8 weeks.
First I learned that it isn't about physical vision so much as seeing things as they truly are. There was a lot in my life I wasn't willing to look at, and I have had some revalations during these weeks.
I also learned that I put too much emphasis on the processes and not enough on results. Over the past couple weeks I've shifted my focus more to noticing improvement rather than making sure I go through all the steps on schedule.
I find that I don't have the confidence to get an eye examination yet, because I just don't think there has been much change in my perscription. I fully intend to get one as soon as my vision has improved noticably, and I'll post the results for you.
I have to admit that I went into this with high expectations and I'm a bit disappointed that I haven't achieved the results I wanted. I truly believe "anything can be healed" and I'm determined to become an example of that in action. One of Martin's cd's says something like "you haven't yet learned how to" and I feel like that describes me. I *know* it is possible but haven't yet learned how to make it work for me.
One of the reasons that improving my vision is so important to me is that I believe that if I can just have one success something will click and the floodgates will open and I'll be able to heal all parts of my life quickly and easily. In addition, I believe I'll then be able to help others in their own healing journey. I picked vision as the thing because I can pretty easily measure results myself.
I also believe that healing is possible "in a blink of an eye." This phrase is even more significant to me because I'm working on vision. Many times I think while blinking "this blink resotres my vision to perfection." Almost every night I go to sleep telling myself that my eyes are healing as I sleep and will be perfect in the morning. I am eager and excited....and invariably disappointed.
As part of the program, I decided to wear my glasses only when absolutely (like driving in the rain or at night). I realized last night though, while watching a movie that not wearing my glasses doesn't make my vision any clearer...it just means I'm living in a fuzzy world. Which makes me feel like I'm missing out and doesn't work for me either.
So what's next for me? Well..... I'll continue noticing that my vision is getting clearer, continue with the eye exercises (though not on such a rigid schedule), keep up with affirmations (I set my computer at work to randomly pop them up on my screen every few hours), and forgive myself for not meeting the deadline.
And I'll keep posting here as things progress...though not regularly as I have been during these 8 weeks.
Thanks so much for coming along with me on this journey. I send light to each and every one of you and wish you success on your own journeys to perfect health!
Maria
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Post by Martin Brofman on Jan 16, 2006 10:04:54 GMT 1
>I will continue on because my vision has not yet improved to the point I want it to.
You need to focus on the fact that it is somewhat better, even if only a little bit.
>First I learned that it isn't about physical vision so much as seeing things as they truly are. There was a lot in my life I wasn't willing to look at, and I have had some revalations during these weeks.
Excellent.
>I find that I don't have the confidence to get an eye examination yet, because I just don't think there has been much change in my perscription.
Even a measureable slight improvement will give you added impetus.
> I have to admit that I went into this with high expectations and I'm a bit disappointed that I haven't achieved the results I wanted.
You have to instead feel good about the progress you have achieved.
> I *know* it is possible but haven't yet learned how to make it work for me.
It is working for you - though you have not yet achieved the results you want to.
> I also believe that healing is possible "in a blink of an eye." This phrase is even more significant to me because I'm working on vision. Many times I think while blinking "this blink resotres my vision to perfection." Almost every night I go to sleep telling myself that my eyes are healing as I sleep and will be perfect in the morning. I am eager and excited....and invariably disappointed.
You would do better to focus on light improvement, a little bit at a time, so you do not have the pressure on yourself. That's what worked with me in getting rid of the cancer.
> I realized last night though, while watching a movie that not wearing my glasses doesn't make my vision any clearer...it just means I'm living in a fuzzy world. Which makes me feel like I'm missing out and doesn't work for me either.
Get okay with the fuzzy so that you do not have the tension in your conscoiusness about your vision not being clear. That tension makes your vision less clear, in fact. Just watch it as a television set with automatic fine tuning, without emotional involvement, so you can just watch the improvement as it happens.
> I'll continue noticing that my vision is getting clearer, continue with the eye exercises (though not on such a rigid schedule), keep up with affirmations (I set my computer at work to randomly pop them up on my screen every few hours), and forgive myself for not meeting the deadline.
No deadline - just a reality check at a specified time interval to see the progress up to that point.
Trust your trip.
We are with you.
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Post by queen8 on Jan 16, 2006 17:51:30 GMT 1
Dear Maria, when I read your "conclusions", there are so many things I recognize from my own process. For example the fact that we've chosen to work on our eye sight because it's pretty easy to check the results on our own. I also recognize the disappointment when we don't succeed as fast as we'd like!
What's different for me now and when I worked on this before, is that I now know and use this message board. You're a true inspiration, and I find your sharing of your journey important as we go through some of the same things. THANK YOU!
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Post by anna on Jan 17, 2006 10:06:11 GMT 1
Dear maria WE all give ourselves a deadline and they hurt - because if you haven't acheved what you wanted to you're inclined to throw in the towel - but i think Marton's phrase about a 'reality check' is better..after all if the deadline passes without achievement you're not dead, just yourself becoming more aware of who you are. Anyway i say this to reassure myself as much as you. My reality check is today when I go to the hospital to have my eyes examinrd for any change. Like you I 'know' this process works, and i am confident it will work, and i have flashes when my eyes are much better, but it's very hard not to be anxious about this check today.. Keep going, slow progress is still progress.. i don't supposed you enjoyed the process of being born much either! But here you are, wonderfully able to shine your light in the world. Love Anna
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Post by Martin Brofman on Jan 17, 2006 11:00:37 GMT 1
It's really important to go to the examination feeling really good and confident, and insisting on holding that perception.
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