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Post by Angeleyes on Mar 3, 2006 15:10:41 GMT 1
Thank you Martin, That makes so much sense.
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Post by Angeleyes on Mar 13, 2006 20:40:49 GMT 1
Today I'm on week 7 day 4. I've fallen into a good routine with the hatha yoga exercise cd. I see I do most things because I have to or feel I have to and very little because I want to. I've begun clearing a lot of clutter in my home as it's a starting point for clearing in my life. I have responsibilities that I need to do daily and this last week I have scaled down making new commitments in my life which would have added pressure to an already full schedule. I realise that over the years I have gotten into a habit of producing more stress instead of undercommitting myself and releasing stress so much that after an acupuncture treatment last week which focused on relaxation I found it an alien feeling to have all of my body relaxed and no tension whatsoever. I even found myself trying to tense my body to feel "comfortable" in my body, that's what I had grown so used to. I caught myself doing it a nd realised this is what I have been doing so I'm trying to relax as often as possible, not easy when there have been so many family commitments for me to deal with. I'm not as excited or motivated as I was at the start but I see I'm constantly changing since I started this program, so that's a bonus. Alice
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Post by Angeleyes on Mar 21, 2006 11:59:47 GMT 1
Hello,Today I'm on week 8 day 5. I have found I'm really resisting the exercises and whole process this week. I am still doing it but can almost feel the skidmarks as my feet are being pushed along. I see now why I'm minus 10 in eyesight, if it seems like hard work I'll avoid it or do it reluctantly even though I end up doing something much more difficult and time consuming than if I'd stuck to the original plan. This week I discovered how I have been quite controlling in the past, sort of laying down the law. I'm trying to change as I realised I may well have been walking over others will and feelings in doing this and I had chosen not to see this. i am tidying quite a bit too and releasing a lot of clutter. I have a sad feeling in my chest and haven't been able to shift it? Any ideas on how to release it. My eyes are sore and tired today. My daughter was sick last night and I had a nightmare and I lost some sleep with both things. I have done healing on my eyes and sent healing to the girl I was when my eyesight first started to deteriorate and the adult I was when it deteriorated again in adulthood. I suppose at this stage I'm expecting to open my eyes and SEE, and it hasn't happened yet. I know things are changing for the better in my home and relationships with my immediate family. I just want my eyesight back and I'd love to not have to do any more work on it. I've lost the attitude that I'd keep on going til I had normal 20/20 vision again. Do I just decide to keep motivated and that's it? Alice
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Post by Maria on Mar 21, 2006 16:06:18 GMT 1
Hi Alice! Keep on truckin!!!! You're doing great. Much better than I did at keeping with the program. Yes, I know its frusterating that things aren't changing as quickly as you'd like. It might help to make a little list of things that HAVE changed since you began. You might be amazed at the positive changes in your life these past 8 weeks. I don't know if you're familiar with the Abraham-Hicks material but a quote from them is "you never get it right, and you never get it done." Sometimes I think if we did get it "done" we'd simply disappear right off the planet Anyway, I think your dedication is inspiring and your progress is definitely worth celebrating. Cheers!!!! Maria
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Post by queen8 on Mar 21, 2006 22:02:35 GMT 1
Dear Alice! I just want to say that I understand your questions about how to keep the motivation. I just decided that I have to increase the use of medication (thyroxin), it's not good, but I have to compare it to my glasses: there are some things I can't do without them. I think I decide now to let the healing come more "by itself". I'll try to focus on living my life here and now as best as possible, and not getting too hung up in the "oh, I have to be healed, I have to get rid of my glasses, I have to manage to live more happily" - then it all becomes a heavy burden and a bore. Deepak Chopra writes something about having a goal, but still have it at a distance, avoiding to be fixed on it (ooch, I feel I don't find the right words in English, my book is translated from English). When I read about it, it reminded me of a goal I had when working for an organization when I was twenty. I worked there for two years, and I didn't reach the goal and felt lousy. I started to study, and the first week the goal I had had in my former work just arrived by itself. I think that was because I was not letting the goal "consume" me any more, if you see what I mean. I don't know if the same "laws" apply when we talk about e.g. obtaining perfect vision, but I'd think so. I'm not sure how this fits in, but maybe someone else knows more about this, setting goals, what to do when not reaching them, how to avoid being too "fixed", how to keep motivated.
I'm glad you write honestly about your process. Thank you! I hope the answers to how to continue the process just "arrive by themselves" with not much effort on your part!! About releasing your sadness in your chest, maybe it will work with the visualisation MArtin suggested to me in another thread, seeing how the doors to the heart open up.
Best wishes, Queen
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Post by Martin Brofman on Mar 22, 2006 11:29:44 GMT 1
Hi, Alice,
"I have a sad feeling in my chest and haven't been able to shift it? Any ideas on how to release it. My eyes are sore and tired today."
See if the sadness has something to do with the situation when your eyesight deteriorated - and with the now-compassionate view you are having of yourself, I see that there might be some stuff a bit difficult for you to look at. It hurts you to see some things.
Keep in mind - the truth shall set you free. Have the willingness to see what is, and then you can just go on from there.
You're doing well, and getting in touch with sensitive things. My thoughts are with you.
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Post by maiwa on Jun 9, 2006 21:40:45 GMT 1
Hi, all,
it is so encouraging to read how you´re going forward and to feel your heart how you support each other so warm heartedly! Thank you! >Tha´s simply wonderful
Maike
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Post by Angeleyes on Jul 10, 2006 15:55:55 GMT 1
Hello Martin My biggest fear is feeling threatened in my environment, I get this in a few places. I feel afraid of what might happen if I was totally honest with others in these situations. Do I work on reassuring myself or how do I change the situations?
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Post by Martin Brofman on Jul 10, 2006 20:14:34 GMT 1
Sounds like you feel like a weed in a garden, when you are just a flower in the wrong garden. Look around and see where you do fit in, with no need to change yourself.
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Post by Angeleyes on Jul 10, 2006 20:18:56 GMT 1
Thank you Martin, that makes sense.
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Post by Angeleyes on Oct 8, 2007 14:40:51 GMT 1
Hello Everyone, I've been reading over these posts and noticed y last post of "My biggest fear is feeling threatened in my environment, I get this in a few places. I feel afraid of what might happen if I was totally honest with others in these situations. Do I work on reassuring myself or how do I change the situations?" Just recently I realised that as a child I had always felt unsafe in my environment whether at home or at achool. This recurrs often for me so I need to focus on trust, confidence and feeling safe in my environment. Alice
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