Post by kasia on Apr 24, 2014 14:12:06 GMT 1
Hello,
for several months I have a problem with swallowing. I don't know what to do. I'm so terrified that...;((( A few months ago I worked in an hospital in lab. I had severe stress at work. I had severe stress at work, because two people, who have done research, didn't want additional employee and therefore they didn't want to teach me.They screamed at me, criticized, ridiculed and tormented me mentally.They told the boss that I don't want to learn. They didn't let me to work. At home I thought about it all the time, I was worried and I cried. In December, the director told me that he will fire me from working, because I don't want to learn from these two people and according to these people I'm doing wrong researchs. No one believed me. I felt powerless and I couldn't longer defend. After the incident, I ate dinner at home and reminded me of those situations and suddenly I could not swallow tea. I panicked and I was afraid to swallow. I began to have a strong burping (bleching), which makes it difficult to swallow, then came pain in the right lower abdomen, heartburn, indigestion and uncontrollable spasms of the esophagus. At the time of swallowing air from the stomach backs up into the oesophagus and,under pressure, it very strongly pushes up the drinking. Sometimes I can't swallow even saliva. This burping occurs usually afternoon and evening. Therefore, the morning I drink as much as possible. But now the fear is so strong that the muscles of the esophagus tighten and I don't know how to swallow. I keep drinking in the mouth and I don't know how to push on, so I forgot how to swallow. Perhaps I control it too much and I'm afraid too.
I visualized myself that I swallow these problems and forgive them and myself.But it didn't help.
I tried Chakra therapy, chromotherapy, affirmations, visualization, mudras, poultice of castor oil by Edgar Cayce, herbs and tablets. It don't help me a lot. Furthermore unfortunately, I have a problem with visualization, because for several years I have obsessive-compulsive disorder and all the time I have in my mind negative thoughts and images. The more I don't want these thoughts and I'm afraid of their, the more they appear. When I read or hear a negative word (e.g. on TV the word "disease", "death"), I'm afraid that it sticks to me.
I eat and drink almost nothing, I really lost weight, I can't look for work through it.
I don't know if these symptoms are by stress or physical illness, e. g. IBS.
I went to a healer, but he gave me medicine and sent to a psychotherapist. I feel a strong blockade. I don't know how to defend against false accusations and stress. I worry too much about everything. I'm afraid of negative words, thoughts, disease, death, suffering, and I'm afraid of life. I feel naive and undervalued.
I don't know how to break free from blockages, unpleasant memories of working and, above all, from the fear of swallowing.
I can't help myself.
Please help me in healing!
Kasia
for several months I have a problem with swallowing. I don't know what to do. I'm so terrified that...;((( A few months ago I worked in an hospital in lab. I had severe stress at work. I had severe stress at work, because two people, who have done research, didn't want additional employee and therefore they didn't want to teach me.They screamed at me, criticized, ridiculed and tormented me mentally.They told the boss that I don't want to learn. They didn't let me to work. At home I thought about it all the time, I was worried and I cried. In December, the director told me that he will fire me from working, because I don't want to learn from these two people and according to these people I'm doing wrong researchs. No one believed me. I felt powerless and I couldn't longer defend. After the incident, I ate dinner at home and reminded me of those situations and suddenly I could not swallow tea. I panicked and I was afraid to swallow. I began to have a strong burping (bleching), which makes it difficult to swallow, then came pain in the right lower abdomen, heartburn, indigestion and uncontrollable spasms of the esophagus. At the time of swallowing air from the stomach backs up into the oesophagus and,under pressure, it very strongly pushes up the drinking. Sometimes I can't swallow even saliva. This burping occurs usually afternoon and evening. Therefore, the morning I drink as much as possible. But now the fear is so strong that the muscles of the esophagus tighten and I don't know how to swallow. I keep drinking in the mouth and I don't know how to push on, so I forgot how to swallow. Perhaps I control it too much and I'm afraid too.
I visualized myself that I swallow these problems and forgive them and myself.But it didn't help.
I tried Chakra therapy, chromotherapy, affirmations, visualization, mudras, poultice of castor oil by Edgar Cayce, herbs and tablets. It don't help me a lot. Furthermore unfortunately, I have a problem with visualization, because for several years I have obsessive-compulsive disorder and all the time I have in my mind negative thoughts and images. The more I don't want these thoughts and I'm afraid of their, the more they appear. When I read or hear a negative word (e.g. on TV the word "disease", "death"), I'm afraid that it sticks to me.
I eat and drink almost nothing, I really lost weight, I can't look for work through it.
I don't know if these symptoms are by stress or physical illness, e. g. IBS.
I went to a healer, but he gave me medicine and sent to a psychotherapist. I feel a strong blockade. I don't know how to defend against false accusations and stress. I worry too much about everything. I'm afraid of negative words, thoughts, disease, death, suffering, and I'm afraid of life. I feel naive and undervalued.
I don't know how to break free from blockages, unpleasant memories of working and, above all, from the fear of swallowing.
I can't help myself.
Please help me in healing!
Kasia
and time doesn't exist.