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Post by Angeleyes on Jul 30, 2008 15:53:47 GMT 1
I realised today that until now I would say I wanted my eyesight to heal and return to normal and yearn for it to happen, however that was the majority of my input. I did follow the exercise program once for 2 months but continued to wear my glasses and left out the "Do Nothing " exercise. I had just emailed Annick about the next Vision Class and was thinking of the preparation work I could be doing until the class takes place, when I realised that I need to turn my yearnings into commitment to do whatever it takes, not whatever I feel like passing by myself as an excuse for having done enough. Another post really hit home where the writer asked Martin if they were fooling themselves if they wore glasses. Ouch! I've been fooling myself that yearning and wanting was the same as doing. This has been a common thread with me as I think back. Now I see: why I had been unsuccessful and what I need to do. I have let go of a lot of stuff but avoided dealing with my fear of seeing judgment in the eyes of others if I did what I wanted, and I noticed it so much in their eyes when I wasn't doing what I wanted. So that's my affirmation sorted for today: I love seeing appreciation in the eyes of others when I do what I really want to do Thank you Martin and Annick for this wonderful site!!! Alice
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Post by Angeleyes on Aug 3, 2008 12:07:10 GMT 1
Soon after I posted this, Martin opened the post on approval and how not everyone will like you. It was great, a real eye opener. It made me realise that I don't need to see appreciation or approval in the eyes of others to do what I want to. I have also realised in the last few days that not everyone will agree with me and it doesn't mean lack of approval or appreciation, it just means that they don't agree with me. I have also discovered that even when I have tried really hard to get accross clear communication with others, sometimes some people hear the words as being what they want them to be and not what I said. This has also taught me to be more attentive to others and what they are saying to me, because it may be different to what I think they're saying or what I want to hear. More and more I'm looking at situations differently and knowing that when something isn't clear to me at first, that there is more to the picture or situation that I have not discovered or remembered yet and that it will become clear. So when something has not been clear to me I am now realising that it will become clear. I see more clearly than I did before and today my affirmations is: It's becoming more and more comfortable to be myself and see clearly. I notice that without my glasses there is so much that I can already see, however I have noticed that my eyes feel sore and tired. I know they felt like this also when I wore glasses, it was just that i ignored them and myself, put my glasses on and made myself get on with it. I see now that I need to rest my eyes and be gentle with them. Palming would help. Doing Nothing exercise is great. Afterwards I am more focussed and get things done. Alice
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Post by Martin Brofman on Aug 3, 2008 16:41:58 GMT 1
...and love your eyes. They need your love.
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Post by Angeleyes on Aug 5, 2008 12:17:52 GMT 1
Thank you Martin, that is very true. Yesterday I started including the Love my eyes exercise and I saw that this person with those eyes I was looking at in the mirror seemed very empty. SO I imagine myself filling with love when I do this exercise. Again today I could see I looked empty and I felt empty also when doing this exercise. So I am going to use my mirror often during the day to see my eyes and the me who has these eyes when I tell my eyes and myself how much I love us. And in the past I was focussing on letting in the love from my parents when working on loving my eyes, I had forgotten the most important one, loving my won eyes. I found that my mind wanders a lot whn I'm Doing Nothing and I keep having to bring it back to doing nothing, however when I had completed the exercise I noticed I am a lot more relaxed than before doing the exercise, so that's good.I have also noticed that my nose feels heavy and full, and even though I have not worn my glasss today there are indents on my nose where my glasses sat yesterday. After the doing nothing exercise I felt my nose is a priority while I also keep doing the eyesight techniques. Isn't it base chakra? This morning while reading the affirmations "I enjoy seeing clearly" pressed my buttons. I had been thinking up until then that improving my eyesight would not be an enjoyable process. I can see with the help of your affirmations that my thought process on seeing was mixed up, and this is becoming clear for me through the different affirmations that I have been drawn to use. Martin, I hav eyour book four years this month and I have enjoyed the insight it has given me. Every time I use it I see a different meaning behind the words. I am looking forward to Annick's vision course in September and as I prepare for it using the book I am getting yet again an even deeper meaning to the words. Am off to love my eyes and enjoy seeing clearly . Alice
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Post by Martin Brofman on Aug 5, 2008 14:30:38 GMT 1
Thanks for keeping us posted.
Does sound as though your nose is missing the glasses, as though you have identified yourself with the glasses - and you do have to identify yourself as the person who had been wearing the glasses, but they are not part of you.
Yes, the nose is root chakra.
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Post by maiwa on Aug 11, 2008 14:13:49 GMT 1
Hey Alice, just want to let you know that I am really encouraged reading your thread! Thanks for sharing your thoughts and insights. maiwa
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Post by Angeleyes on Aug 14, 2008 11:23:17 GMT 1
Thanks Maiwa, Its great to see that you are benefitting so well from the improvement exercises. I was/ am -10 in right eye and -10.75 in left, so I understand the challenge of being able to see. I have found that I am getting more and more uncomfortable with the whole vision improvement idea as I progress. I have to admit "I don't like my life". I have an urge to stop the whole process, put the book, cd and mirror away, and throw myself into reading romance novels, which is what I've always done whenlife has been uncomfortable. I feel a lot of anger and stress which simmer just below the surface, and it takes very little to rise them. The do nothing exercise lulls me back into a calmer state each morning, and then when I've the exercises done and get on with my work for the day the stress and anger come up. I have not enjoyed the process of clearing my vision and as the days go by it is getting more and more uncomfortable. At the moment it feels that while I am telling myself these affirmations all day long, there's another part of me saying "you liar". I have discovered that as the stress grows in my relationship I am now starting to resort to doing things in a way that won't spark my partners displeasure or anger. I recognise that this is not healthy for me. Yet at the moment I don't see how else to deal with this. I have discovered that I have a lot of fear and anger, and fear of anger and anger at fear. I am trying to accept this and then let it go. However I haven't yet seen results. I know that I no longer want to live in this area, yet 3 of my children are still at school and 2 of them finish their education in their schools next June. I want to do what is best for them while also helping myself improve my life and vision. I seem to have rambled on a bit. I think I've been talking things out to myself by writing them here. I know I will see clearly the solutions to my challenges. Alice
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Post by maiwa on Aug 14, 2008 11:45:19 GMT 1
Hey Alice, I also know this feelings of too much pressure and feeling uncomfortable while being in this process. I attendet my first vision workshop in 96... I stopped to focus on it and decided just to develop in general and to create a better life for myself because I felt tired. On a physical level some things are uncomfortable without glasses with -10. Although this might just be another perception... However I understand your feelings very well.
"I know I will see clearly the solutions to my challenges. "
I like this! Trust your trip!
maiwa
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Post by Angeleyes on Aug 14, 2008 12:10:19 GMT 1
Dear Maiwa, Thank you. I have Martins book for 4 years this month. I am attending my first vision course this september. What bothers me the most about my vision is that I am not being real or true to myself if I continue to live life with this level of consciousness. My optician told me a few years ago that total blindness is -20. So I can see the glass as half empty or half full. I don't want to continue with this view of life that I have at present. I see also how happy and relaxed Martin and Annick appear through this website, the books and CDs. I want that. I feel a yearning or hunger for what they have in life and they seem to do it by being themselves and doing what makes them happy. I want to learn how to do that. I want to know who I am, and what it is that I really wwant in life. PS I have a client for reflexology this evening, and I have noticed that with each new client that I have I dread their appointment, especially the reflexology ones. It is not my favourite therapy to practice although I love getting it done. I like doing it on my children and I used to feel it benefited our relationship when I did it on my husband. I have been so tempted to ring and cancel. I will see how I feel after I do the session. Although I have to admit I asked the angels to sort it out, kinda hoping that the person would cancel, talk about sabotage! I'd need to go and do some housework. Alice
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Post by Angeleyes on Aug 18, 2008 16:35:35 GMT 1
Hello, Rereading above post, client came, everything went well and I was very contented afterwards, so I need to work on changing the belief that I've been letting in before new clients. Also what has come up for me the more I work on the eye exercise program, is that I am relly tired, exhausted with a few situations in my life, one more than others. Thing is I am really exhausted with it all, but I have been for years and I don't ever seem to have changed a thing about it. Through fear, I suppose and also I am used to life being this way. Isn't that sad? I feel it is going to take a certain amount of energy to move away physically from this situation and I don't have any energy left. I need to get some out of somewhereif I am to move my life forward. I see so much now of why I chose not to see. Ouch. Alice
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Post by Martin Brofman on Aug 20, 2008 6:12:55 GMT 1
You can decide to no longer have fear as a motivating force in your life, and to no longer make decisions based on fear.
"I am afraid, therefore I decide to...." is no longer good enough.
Do what you need to do in order to be happy.
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Post by Angeleyes on Aug 20, 2008 15:58:57 GMT 1
Thank you Martin, Is that why you use the statement .."I love myself, therefore I decide to.." ? I trust that your Healing Intensives in France went well. Thanks again. Alice
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Post by Martin Brofman on Aug 20, 2008 16:37:07 GMT 1
The statement .."I love myself, therefore I decide to.." is really a Louise Hay thing for people who want to begin making decisions on the basis of self-love.
Rather, I use "I love where I am. I love who I am with. I love what I am doing." as my alarm clock in any moment. When I do not feel comfortable saying any of those, I know I have to change something.
If I do not feel that I love where I am totally, I know I have to be somewhere else.
If I do not feel that I love being with the person(s) I am with, at that time, I have to decide what to do about it - to not be with them in that moment. Perhapos to be with someone else, or alone...
If I do not love what I am doing, I need to be doing something different.
In that way I remove the causes of stress in my life, and I am happier.
And healthier.
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Post by Angeleyes on Aug 22, 2008 14:30:20 GMT 1
Dear Martin, In Maiwa's Vision Journey, you wrote: "With your vision, you accept emotionally that it is blurry for now, and thus remove the emotional tension about the blurriness, from your consciousness and also from the muscles surrounding each eye. Then, as the tensions are relased, the vision can become clearer, and you are in a clear space watching the clarity as it happens. " I understand what you're saying. In my case I feel so emotional about stuff that the emotions seem to have got so big I don't know how to deal with them. Do I just accept this too. I am finding I have not yet been able to do this. Also, I love my family, who I am with. Yet I do not love where I am or what I am doing. I don't know where I want to be or what I want to do. I am feeling lost. Alice
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Post by Martin Brofman on Aug 22, 2008 16:43:41 GMT 1
What I was talking about was the emotions about not seeing clearly the visual field.
In terms of your emotions, just drop back from them so that you can say to yourself, "I am feeling this-and-that about so-and-so - and then decide what you need to change.
In terms of where you are and what you are doing, look at that in terms of moment-to-moment. If you do not feel good about where you live, talk to your family about that and see what happens. In terms of what you are doing, start looking around for what might be feeling better for you.
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