"Lazy" or "Wandering" eye

[gp1108]

Hi Martin,

What would be the meaning behind a "lazy" or "wandering" eye?
It comes and goes in my right eye, but I sometimes notice it in the left as well.


Thank you.

[Martin Brofman]

When the two eyes do not work together, the male eye and the female eye, we can say that the male and the female have not been working together. Which male and which female? Brings up questions of how it was between your parents.

[gp1108]

My parents divorced when I was young. And I seem to remember quite a a lot of fighting.

So, how can I work to heal this?

[Martin Brofman]

Possible to balance the two sides of the brain so that they talk to each other again - and to open the crown chakra. Let in the love from Mom and Dad.

[gp1108]

And would I do that by following the steps you outline in your book, Anything Can Be Healed, page 47? And by imagine opening, and healing the crown chakra, and by imagine love flowing to me from my mom and dad?

[Martin Brofman]

Check out the brain balancing technique in Chapter 16. Letting in the love from your mom is done with the roots, and letting in the white light through the crown is like letting in the love from your father.

Know that they love you, and accept their love.

[gp1108]

Is that the chapter entitled, "Healing Others - Preliminaries"?

[Martin Brofman]

Chapter 16 is "Thought Forms."

[gp1108]

So after two months of intense stress at work( I started a new job ), I decide to get a pair of soft contact lenses to help me see better. I decided I just had to see what it would be like after all these years of not wearing glasses, how I would feel seeing 20/20, or better. I still do Hatha Yoga eye exercises.

At first it was pretty amazing. I went with a prescription that gave me clearer vision in my right eye in an effort to get both of my eyes to function together. Previously I tended to favor my left, farsighted eye, most of the time.

After a couple of days the novelty has worn off. I feel totally different with those lenses on my eyes. I don't feel like I'm myself. I feel anxious, rigid, tense, closed down. I took them out after the third day and I felt free, expressive and joyful. Does that make sense. I'll take a little blurr over the forced clear vision with the contacts.

Have you seen that before - or has anyone else experienced that?

[Martin Brofman]

Sounds like the emotions that resulted from the situation when your vision became unclear, have been coming to the surface to be released. That happens sometimes.

Congratulations on your choice for clarity.

[gp1108]

Thanks, Martin.

So along with this "free, expressive and joyful" that I am feeling without the contacts(It was actually a period of three weeks that I wore them.), at times I feel this tremendous rush of negative emotions pour forth. I mentioned this before in one of my previous post.

It's almost like wearing those lenses for that period of time took me back in consciousness to the mindset that precipitated the need for the glasses in the first place. I think this is what you talk about.

So what is coming up, and I'll try to be objective, is this fear, anxiety, stress, and panic. I feel like I want to run away from the situation and hide, and my voice starts to constrict and get dry. I feel like I'm being judged, laughed at and being ridiculed and being called stupid. And if by chance my boss yells or swears at me, it's like a switch is thrown in my head and I revert to a 5 year old.

Due to a lack of work I took a job in the restaurant business despite being something I promised myself I would never do again. I just "couldn't see" any other options. (I get the pun.) These strong emotions and feelings rise up during our "Rush" periods and sometimes I feel locked in them for up to two hours. I have tried various techniques to deal with them and I've found the best way is to not take them or myself to seriously and to view them as something rising up to be released. "This too, shall pass."

As uncomfortable as they are, I would take them any day over the constricted feeling I have with those contacts. I remember those same feeling coming up the very first time I started eye exercises. It was like years of stored emotions, locked in the eye muscles were being released.

I hope that's not too much information, but it's great to have a forum like this to express what's going on. I know "It's all good" and everything is unfolding perfectly, and I know that there are an infinite number professional work opportunities for me out side of the restaurant industry.

I see myself as a writer - and a successful one!

Thanks.

[gp1108]

And following that same thread - what ever the cause of those feelings must have something to do with not seeing clearly. Whatever the interpretation my mind set up to construct that, has to play a huge part in getting to the healing or cure. Could I have made that decision as a four or five year old?

So if what is behind those feelings, bottom line, would have to be something like "not good enough", inadequate, unworthy. Yes?

And so the opposite would be something like knowing my wholeness, I am"good enough", I am adequate, I am worthy, I am loved, etc., etc.. Yes.

And also knowing and experiencing joy. Life is supposed to be joyful and without struggle and, too much stress.

[gp1108]

There may be some therapeutic value in writing or sharing what is going on in your life. Yesterday at work was miraculous. Every symptom that I shared in yesterdays post literally vanished.

It was like I intended a new reality, said what I was willing to release, and - it happened. Pretty cool.

And as for my vision - I noticed greater flashes of clarity throughout the day.

This may be my new daily post.

[gp1108]

Another great, easy day at work and the flashes of clarity continue.

[Martin Brofman]

You are processing in a great way!

Yes, you are a great writer, writing a journal of a return to clarity.

Could be a best-seller.

Keep up the good work!