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Post by Maria on Feb 5, 2006 9:16:17 GMT 1
Hello!
I'm having a problem with floaters lately. First I thought it was just when I'm tired but it isn't. It can happen any time throughout the day. I read in Martin's book about floaters being releated to control issues so when they occur I mentally release control (though sometimes I don't really know control of what).
But it doesn't make them stop. Any other ideas?
Peace,
Maria
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Post by Martin Brofman on Feb 5, 2006 16:53:27 GMT 1
It can also be about controlling yourself, your emotions, etc., instead of just letting yourself be, and acknowledging the truth of what is going on for you.
Relaxation techniqaues help.
Do a meditation to just relax.
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Post by dave on Feb 5, 2006 19:12:52 GMT 1
;Dsome floaters can be related to unproper food such as coffee, chocolates ,... does it speak to you?
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Post by Maria on Feb 5, 2006 23:20:31 GMT 1
No not really on the improper food.... I tend to have caffeine reactions (way too much soda in my younger years) so I rarely indulge. The floaters happen mostly at work where I definitely have control issues. I control myself by forcing myself to keep working when I know my eyes are tired....or when I'd rather be doing something else (which is most of the time). Also feeling out of control when people I work with hold me up by not doing their part... You know, typical work stuff. Plus there's the whole emotion thing... A long time ago I purposely turned off my emotions (I think when I was 15 or so) because I didn't like feeling out of control (there's the control issues again). Now I want to turn them back on but I don't know how. Sometimes I'm not sure if I feel very little range of emotion because I've buried them so deep I can't find them, or because I've had so much heart break that that things just don't matter anymore. Anyway, at one of the Reiki circles I attend, I asked that my emotions be unlocked and that I start feeling things again. We'll see if that helps things along. I'm also scripting a lot on it and setting the intent in my meditation. And somehow I feel like the emotions are somewhat tied up with the chakras so I'm asking that they be opened and cleared as well. So that's where I am today. And as I write this I notice my eyes are tired again but I'm just loving my computer time so I don't want to stop (my kid will come home soon and kick me off, lol). I really need to start listening to my body though..... So I'm off Peace, Maria
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Post by suzanne on Feb 6, 2006 17:06:39 GMT 1
Dear Maria,
I'm delving into my mind to search for clues to these floaters that are bothering you.
I have only just obtained the vision book (I've been using others) so I don't yet know what Martin has to say about cataracts. You mentioned in one of your posts that you had small ones and I'm just wondering if the floaters are little reminders that these need healing too, although I remember your bit about polishing up the lenses!
You see, I know that my own eye problems are not just connected to myopia but to my diabetic condition which I feel needs addressing from another angle. I am not suggesting you have diabetes, but you did say you had slightly raised blood pressure so the floaters and/or cataracts could be related to kidney function. (Can't you just tell I'm a would-be doctor!) I hope you don't see this message as intrusive or scary, but if you're not having much joy with controlling the control issues (!) it might be worth approaching it in a different way, still with energy healing, of course. Kidneys and blood pressure are both related to control anyway, I believe. Thanks for the dietary info. I've been following it up and I might just write you a personal message about the coconut oil sometime, if I may.
Much love, joy and laughter,
Suzanne
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Post by Maria on Feb 6, 2006 18:32:27 GMT 1
Hey Suzanne, Its funny you should mention diabetes. It's been on my mind lately, mainly because I'm overweight and I'm starting to find that I have to be more careful about what I eat. Basically, I need to make sure I have protein at every meal or my body screams at me....feels terrible. Also, I've been exploring anger issues lately, along with control issues. I'm poking around in my mind, trying to see if there's buried anger hiding somewhere in there. Outwardly I don't really feel angry (irritated sometimes but not really angry) but I can't say I feel very happy often either. Right now I just get by day after day, looking forward to Sundays when I can relax and recharge. I'm thinking there must be something there though... because if we go with the Body Mirror model I have symptoms which point to that (vision problems, teeth/gum issues, thyroid issues which point to not expressing myself, feet and ankle pains which indicate not emotionally standing on my own, etc.). I have known about the cataracts since I was a teenager. I remember when I first got glasses the eye doctor going "hmm" and saying that I had a cloudiness on one lens (don't remember which). He speculated that it had been there since birth but who knows. Anyway, over the years I've developed a cloudiness in the other lens which the eye doctor says will just get worse until I need surgery. When I look at bright lights (headlights for instance) without my glasses there is a little hole in the middle of them where the lens doesn't let the light in. I am polishing them each day in meditation. Virtually all of the floaters I experience are computer related. I spend a lot of time on the computer at work, and then more at home. My eyes are rebelling by sending floaters and sometimes headaches and blurred vision (especially if I'm feeling tired or overwhelmed). If I stay away from the computer for a couple days it totally clears up. Interestingly, when I had the old CRT monitor I didn't experience this...it's just been since getting the newer flat screen monitiors. Sadly, my job requires a lot of computer time, and I love keeping up with my friends on this and other forums --- ok, I'll admit I'm a computer junkie Thanks for your reply Suzanne. And feel free to pm me any time! Peace, Maria
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Post by Martin Brofman on Feb 7, 2006 9:13:26 GMT 1
Hi, Maria,
I would wonder how you feel about your job, and whether there are tensions in your consciousness about that.
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Post by Maria on Feb 8, 2006 2:30:31 GMT 1
There are tensions everywhere about that If you remember I took the job because I needed to support myself when my husband and I split up. Each day my body is telling me more and more that it hates this job. I come home at night and literally collapse for 1-2 hours. I put on one of your cd's (I'm really liking healing vibrations right now) and usually end up falling asleep through it, and feel a lot better once I wake up. The people at my job are wonderful and very supportive and caring. I feel like if I can stick it out a couple more months things will get a lot easier and (hopefully) less stressful. We are a start-up franchise and the sheer volume of work is overwhelming, as well as learning new systems. Today I was at a class in another city and I got so sick after lunch I had to borrow someone's car and go home (we had carpooled). I felt very cold even though many people were complaining that the room was hot. My left breast started tingling and hurting, and my left arm became achy and weak and numb. I also felt lightheaded and had a knot in my solar plexus which caused me to spend a lot of time in the bathroom wondering if I would get sick (though it wasn't that kind of feeling). I've had these symptoms before, when I was on a very unbalanced vegan diet, but its been several years. It took me almost 3 hours of lying down under multiple blankets and meditating/sleeping to feel ok again. In fact I just got up and the first thing I did was log on here. On the way home I wondered if these symptoms had anything to do with the vision bluriness I experienced the other day while at work (almost blinding momentairly) and a general inability to stay focused. Almost like I'd been running on no sleep for several days except I've been taking care to get at least 8 hours a night plus doing 1-2 hours of meditation each day which I count as kind of extra. So I find myself thinking maybe its time to get a good old fashioned medical check-up. My experience with doctors has ranged from so-so to downright horrible so I don't know excatly what I expect to gain from this except perhaps the resurrance that everything is ok or the idea that I have something to work on. I just know that all the way home it was on the forefront of my mind so perhaps I better listen. Of course then the money issue comes up, which brings me back to the job. This job gives me something I haven't had in 10 years - financial stability. And leaving this job for a part time job (which is what I feel I can handle right now) would mean not being able to pay the bills which is another, equally devestating kind of stress. And then I think if I get a check-up and they find "something" how would I treat it? Of course there is pressure to go through conventional treatments which, even with insurance can become quite costly very quickly. *sigh* why are money issues such a big monkey on my back? Anway, I know I have a lot of soul searching and decisions to make, which are unfortunately not easy. I just hope this 'ole body can hold out long enough to see me through Peace, Maria
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Post by Maria on Feb 8, 2006 3:10:57 GMT 1
Hello!
I'm reading all these threads and thinking about what I just posted here.
Something I've noticed since restarting on this spiritual path, and especially since reading Martin's books and listening regularly to the cd's is that the symptoms I experience are much more swift and severe than they ever were.
I wonder if my body is saying "ah-ha... she's learning to communicate with me" and because of that there is practically no time between a tension and a symptom.
I used to have a HUGE tolerance for all sorts of stress. I could put up with things that many people could not. And my body always did its best, complaining little and accepting that "this is how it is, deal with it." Yes, I developed symptoms over the years but they came on gradually (weight gain, goiter, sore ankle and heel, etc.).
Now its like at the slightest stress, my body screams at me loud and clear and practically shuts itself down very quickly.
Also, I've noticed that since listening to the second track on the healing vibrations cd very regularly (sometimes even twice a day), certain symptoms have intensified. I let my consicousness pick the body part that's in the most need of healing (tryed to dictate it once but my mind kept drifting elsewhere so I went with it). Usually my attention falls on the goiter and left breast and sometimes left arm (exactly what got me today). This has resulted in a very intense and sometimes unpleasant sensation during the meditations, though afterward I always feel loads better. But I notice that during the day these parts make themselves known by aching or tingling.
Has anyone else found this to be true, that is the shortening of time between tension and symptoms?
Peace,
Maria
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Post by suzanne on Feb 8, 2006 11:02:46 GMT 1
Dear Maria,
I really feel for you - your anguish is coming right through your words and I can empathize with much of what you say. I'm not experienced enough with the cd's or meditations to give you the feedback you are asking for, but the message I am getting is that you are not taking enough physical exercise. It sounds to me that your circulation and lymphatics need a good old shake up!
Meditation, yoga and stretching are wonderful, and I bet you rush around trying to get the chores done, but I have found since my forties that a walk up a hill or a session on my rebounder every day, preferably both, is essential to my mood and physical well-being.
Becoming a single parent brings unexpected stresses and responsibilities, plus the inevitable lack of spare time, but I find physical exercise is as essential as physical food! I always pay if I neglect it. Ladies have particular needs and do need to take care of their metabolism. A rebounder is a wonderful asset and you can use it to suit yourself in the privacy of your own home! One 20-minute or two 15-minute sessions I'm sure would help (you build up to this) but you need some jaunty, beaty, bouncy music to stop it being boring - Irish is very jolly and mood-enhancing, but whatever turns you on!
You've been so kind to me and to others, Maria. I really hope you get some useful feedback.
Love, healing and happiness, Your friend Suzanne x
PS. A regular, full-body massage session would help enormously, too. You could offer to swap with a friend to save the expense, but if you don't have the energy for anyone else, and I know that happens, offer your body to your daughter to practise on! Young girls love doing massage - there are some fabulous books available on holistic massage now, especially from the USA; I'm sure she could get one from the library, and that way she would be the one expending the energy, not you! You know I'd hop across the Atlantic and do it for you, if I could!
I know I've focused entirely on physical things in this message, but remember that when you are doing lots of inner work with energy you need physical practices to ground it. S.
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Post by gilly on Feb 8, 2006 16:42:25 GMT 1
I think Suzanne might be right about exercise. If you're always sitting in front of the computer (familiar, that one), some kind of physical stress buster will certainly do you good. Then it depends on what you like - whether its yoga or kick-boxing or going for walks in the woods... The diet stuff is also something I read about in a 1930s book on improving vision (not by Bates, but influenced by it) which advocated a low-starch and low-protein diet plus physical exercise as part of the programme. I'm starch intolerant - especially wheat but also potatoes and maize - and keeping right off carbs clears up my whole system (but that might just be because they poison me...) Might be worth a try, though. I alos get floaters, but haven't worked out what makes them come and go, though I'm getting them less and less as I use my glasses less and less. I also get something which resembles a finger-print over the centre of my lens, which again comes and goes. Strange that once you start noticing these things they really start to bug you. They'll eventually go away though. Maybe once you start to ignore them they give up... Anyway, remember that we're all with you. You're always so positive for us, so I'll be sparing a bit of positive time for you. Love and hugs, Gilly
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Post by Maria on Feb 8, 2006 22:42:43 GMT 1
Thanks so much for your words of encouragement! Yes, you are both right about the exercise. Its cold and yucky out and I haven't been making time to move the 'ole body around much. I will make a point to do so from now on. I did go to the doctor this morning, partly because I still wasn't feeling so good, and also because I wanted to have a good explaination to give to my boss Over the years, I've had experiences with the medical profession ranging from so-so to absolutely horrid, so I was delighted to find that this doctor was an actual human! He totally agreed with everything I said, even suggesting some supplements (that's right supplements - not prescriptions!) as a temporary measure to help me feel better. Together we came to the conclusion that I was most likely having an anxiety attack, which makes sense given all the live changes I've experienced lately. His only concern is that my blood pressure is very high (170/110), and that was after resting a while in the office...it was higher when i came in. So he wants me to take medication for that. He also wants to run a thyroid test and stress test just to rule other things out. This is so cool! I've always wanted to do a stress test and now I get to!!! And lucky me - the insurance company picks up most of the tab I wanted to share that in the very middle of things, when I felt the worse, no amount of self talk or sitting still or moving around or distraction or any action on my part was able to calm me down. It was like my body had taken control and everything about making a decision to be better and such went right out the window. I even had trouble meditating and couldn't bear to listen to any cd's. Even falling asleep was hard. I think that's what scared me more than anything....feeling powerless over how I felt. Hmmm....another control issue I have? Anyway, I really feel the love emanating from this group!!!! Thank you so much!!! Peace, Maria
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Post by queen8 on Feb 8, 2006 22:46:46 GMT 1
Dear Maria! "Has anyone else found this to be true, that is the shortening of time between tension and symptoms?" Yes, I think that's part of the explanation, we're learning a new language and it takes less and less time to get the meaning! Another important factor, I believe, is that our attention is drawn to what we're ready to cope with right now (if not all of it, at least parts), and sometimes that may feel as if things are getting worse, as we get "new" symptoms. There's also another thing I'd like to write something about. I think we develop patterns during our lives. MAybe it started out with just a little thing or maybe a big one, but we learnt a way to cope. Now we have to relearn. When you now feel you get symptoms very fast, it may also be because the thing that happened "today" goes into a pattern and reminds you of something "heavy" from the past. As I said, though, I think when we're aware of the symptoms now, we have the strength to face their reason! Physical exercise: yes, but I think the main issue should be getting to know yourself better. I've been part of a group where we experimented with different types of music, for example, walking around in the room, trying to use our body to really be in the feeling that the music reminded us of. Another exercise I've tried is a tour of my body: like MArtin on his cd's goes through the whole body telling you to relax, I use my hands to show love to my feet, my legs, etc through my whole body. Stretching also works good for me: In the hatha-yoga exercise, you stretch your eye muscles, probably other muscles need the same kind of stretching! Most important, probably, is that you enjoy what you're doing and that you do what you (your body included) enjoy! What do you need to solve you money situation, do you know that? Keep us posted, please! Love from queen!
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Post by Maria on Feb 15, 2006 14:25:59 GMT 1
Hello! I wanted to let everyone know how my little medical tests went. As my doctor suspected, all my symptoms are entirely stress related, which I interpret to mean job related. The stress (treadmill) test yesterday was interesting. I've been having this numbness in my left arm and breast, and my left shoulder blade area aches all the time. I think really the left shoulder blade is a pinched nerve or cramped muscle that's causing everything else. Anyway, during the test the symptoms totally cleared up, and within 10 minutes after the test they returned. I'm thinking that do indeed need to get the 'ole heart pumping and the blood circulating a bit better Any suggestions on how to do that? I've tried walking but my feet and legs give out long before my heart rate goes up. Riding a bike hurts my bottom, despite getting the cushy seats (u'd think my own bit of rear end padding would take care of that but it doesn't). Maybe light upper body weights? Anyway, I'm also working on this from a body mirror point of view. Left is my will side and all the symptoms are on the left (besides what I said above my head feels congested and dizzy on the left side, my thryoid is bothering me on the left side, and the left side of my abdomen has been cramping up. Interestingly, the only thing not affected is the left leg and foot). So, correct me if I'm wrong but this points to tensions about doing what I want. The cramp in the muscle (shoulder blade) points to tension in relationships - maybe not getting what I want out of relationships. The arm stuff means not going for what I want or doing so in a weak and powerless way (weak, numb feeling). The left thyoid sensation indicates not communicating what I want and the left head congestion and dizziness means having problems in the area of authority (what I want vs what I think I must do). Left breast is tension about allowing love in relationships and also connecting with my feminine side (I do not feel very feminine at the moment). Finally, the abdomen (around liver area there are twinges) means not holding my power for what I want, or compromizing. Did I miss anything? This is really exciting to me because I now know that I need to address these job related issues head on. Gotta do it in a way that doesn't cause other issues though (ie quit job = root chakra issues). I'll keep you posted Peace, Maria
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Post by Martin Brofman on Feb 15, 2006 16:04:42 GMT 1
"I've been having this numbness in my left arm and breast, and my left shoulder blade area aches all the time."
If you are left handed, this is about going for what you want in a relationship. The numbness is about keeping yourself from feeling something about going for what you want in a relationship.
So - are you ready to open that door again?
...and if you are not crazy about your job, what options are open to you?
See a job placement agency.
...or define your own job.
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