Post by Angeleyes on Sept 15, 2006 12:26:00 GMT 1
Yes I've just had another revelation.
I realised one of my biggest fears, dread, confrontational situations at the time my eyesight first deteriorated in childhood was school. I dreaded going, was terrified of the teacher and because I was bright for my age was relied on a lot by some other kids to help them with their work. I didn't feel there was anyone I could talk to about it as my mum was terminally ill at the time and at home there was more important stuff going on than what was happening in my life. I remember deciding there was nothing that could be done about it and I wasn't that important anyway so I'd just have to get on with it. I was so stressed. No one ever told me I wasn't important I just deduced that the focus was on other things. Interesting that my eyesight deteriorated also after I'd had my tonsils removed,which was a symptom of my deciding not to talk about it
In adult hood I havn't got much time for the educational system and have observed quite a few control freaks in the classroom who have attracted a lot of Karma for the way they have treated children, my own children included. But what is the alternative?
I see this is a big issue for me and now its coming up again for one of my children in extremes although none of them have ever been that keen on school. How do I deal with what's mine. I want to be careful that I don't taint their viewpoint anymore than I already have.
I realised one of my biggest fears, dread, confrontational situations at the time my eyesight first deteriorated in childhood was school. I dreaded going, was terrified of the teacher and because I was bright for my age was relied on a lot by some other kids to help them with their work. I didn't feel there was anyone I could talk to about it as my mum was terminally ill at the time and at home there was more important stuff going on than what was happening in my life. I remember deciding there was nothing that could be done about it and I wasn't that important anyway so I'd just have to get on with it. I was so stressed. No one ever told me I wasn't important I just deduced that the focus was on other things. Interesting that my eyesight deteriorated also after I'd had my tonsils removed,which was a symptom of my deciding not to talk about it
In adult hood I havn't got much time for the educational system and have observed quite a few control freaks in the classroom who have attracted a lot of Karma for the way they have treated children, my own children included. But what is the alternative?
I see this is a big issue for me and now its coming up again for one of my children in extremes although none of them have ever been that keen on school. How do I deal with what's mine. I want to be careful that I don't taint their viewpoint anymore than I already have.