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Post by wearefree on Feb 23, 2009 23:03:14 GMT 1
When it happened I was trying to think for myself more, trust myself more - perhaps I was trying to force this upon me.
Another thing Martin, I cannot seem to concentrate very well, I do not want to do any studying at all...is this down to being unhappy with my living arrangement would you say? I am unhappy with what I am studying, but in the past(when I lived at home) this did not have such a big affect on my concentration levels..and consequently my work used to be of a higher standard.
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Post by Martin Brofman on Feb 23, 2009 23:43:43 GMT 1
Lack of concentration is root chakra - tension abou t money, home, job.
If you don't like what you are studying, why not study what interests you?
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Post by wearefree on Feb 24, 2009 8:51:33 GMT 1
Thanks Martin, I don't have too long left to the degree because I'm just in the 'seeing it out' phase. I think it might be an idea to look for jobs that I can do in the future that I will like, it might bring some optimism to my outlook of the future as well. At the moment however there is an unhappy feeling of not having enjoyed my university experience (partly due to studying something that I thought would give me respect and a high paying job later). So I am wary that unless I try and make my life's situation a little better now, I will regret my university experience even more. Thanks for all your help.
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Post by maiwa on Mar 17, 2009 9:51:45 GMT 1
I had similar experiences with my studies at university. I didn´t quit, what I did was to look more and more for what I love doing, not that much outside like what kind of professions are there, but inside. Finally I could did my exam with something I really loved. Although I didn´t have that much fun before the final thing was simply wonderful.
I also felt regrets. Focus on acceptance. You did it in the best way. From now on you can bring the joy and love in there.
Trust your trip!
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Post by wearefreenotlogged on Mar 18, 2009 8:53:29 GMT 1
Thanks Maiwa,
I think that acceptance of my current situation and what has happened to me, has been one of the things I have struggled to deal with. However, I also think it is very important that I accept my situation and how I currently feel even though I have such a strong desire to be happy - and not to live in fear.
As Martin has mentioned before I think that inside us at some level we are aware that we are unhappy with something. So I agree that looking inside and trusting our intuition is the best step for improvement.
However for now, I think that acceptance might be the best way forward for me (since I cannot change the course I study). I have made some steps to change other things though - such as where I am living.
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Post by Martin Brofman on Mar 23, 2009 19:48:14 GMT 1
As you say, you are almost complete with your studies - and then it's a make-it-up-as-you -go-along reality, doing only what feels good, and best for you.
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Post by Wearefreenotlogged on Apr 11, 2009 11:09:08 GMT 1
Thanks Martin,
The more I think about it, the more I notice that the metaphors of our physical conditions are a clear reflection of our mental issues.
I just want to briefly mention what happened the other day. I had read a little of Louise Hay's book in a bookstore and then I walked out and was confronted with an Iranian woman who wanted to talk to me about something...I usually ignore people like that because I sense they want my money, but I knew I had very little money on me..so I decided to spare some time to talk.
It turned out to my suprise, she was a very nice lady and was campaigning against political persecution in Iran, so I contributed the money I had, which I don't normally do...
The next thing I know, she started asking me questions about what I do and whether I'm happy. She told me she used to be an estate agent for 30 years in the USA, but that she wasn't happy...which is why she gave it all up for political campaigning. She told me that her heart was now happy. Then she said to me very enthusiastically, after I told her I disliked my university subjects, "you should follow your heart...then you will be the best at what you do".
This was just something that I thought I'd share with all of you. Thanks again Martin.
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Post by wearefree on Jun 26, 2009 0:52:48 GMT 1
Dear all,
For the first time, I can say I am in my healing phase...I can just sense it. My vision has also improved a little, but I know that the healing is taking place and my consciousness seems to be working on restoring my health. My psoriasis has started to fade over the last few days. One thing that happened today was I suddenly sensed genuine compassion in my heart, and it stayed there for some time. With the glasses on I always felt disconnected a little from people, but today I felt much more connected and I was able to lift my head up while walking and I was fine with eye contact - these are things that have always troubled me.
I have given up the struggle, I stopped the degree and also started living on my own and it feels like a big relief. Like I said, I also sense a new compassion and love for others within me now, which probably comes from taking loving action towards myself, which this website and Martin have taught me are important. Anyway, this is my update for now.
Thanks.
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Post by Martin Brofman on Jun 26, 2009 5:32:14 GMT 1
Good work!
Keep it up.
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Post by wearefree on Jan 30, 2010 12:53:22 GMT 1
Hi,
It's been a while since I posted on here. Just an update:
I changed degree course listening to my intuition and also moved place to a better city which I like. This was last September.
But the eyesight did not improve. One thing I did do was analyze myself on a constant daily basis, seeing how well I could see, and nothing changed. I also tried the Bates method but nothing changed.
One thing I didn't do wholeheartedly however, was dedicate myself to the new life...I was kind of expecting results without actually living life...I let the degree course slip a lot and wasn't handing in work before the deadline. I think the reason the improvement didn't come was because I did not take the next step of living my new life(and so the old patterns of thinking etc were still in place).
Over the past couple of days having realised this, my eyesight has improved as I practice living my new life rather than analyzing my eyesight, and at the same time getting on with some studying.
I just wish I had done this at the start of the degree course since around 1/6 of the degree is what I have done so far - and most of it I have failed to give in on time, which might be contributing to some future fear of failure. I'm unsure whether this will keep me from seeing clearly.
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Post by Martin Brofman on Jan 30, 2010 18:15:49 GMT 1
Hold your attention on the fact that your eyesight has begun to improve - by living your life, rather than staying in your analytical mind - and remember to trust your trip.
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Post by wearefree on Mar 16, 2010 17:44:06 GMT 1
Today I started to trust my trip more, and my eyesight did indeed improve...but my eyes also felt different - mainly my left eye - it started to feel like there was more air flowing into it...the same thing did not happen to my right eye. What do you think this means? It was quite a nice feeling, but it doesn't stay and I expect it might fluctuate more.
Thanks.
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Post by Martin Brofman on Mar 17, 2010 7:30:30 GMT 1
Anyway, just hold your attention on the fact that eyesight did indeed improve.
Air flowing through your left eye might be something about letting in the love from a female.
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Post by wearefree on Apr 5, 2010 17:22:05 GMT 1
Hi Martin,
I started a new university course in September but got sidetracked with eyesight improvement things like the Bates method - and I let my studies slip. I realise that I failed to do what makes me happy and trust my trip - I didn't do my studies, making me unhappy and guilty. I'm now considering what to do, and even though the eyesight is improving I'm wondering if it might be best to start the uni course again. I realise now that the eyesight is just a side-effect. I am wondering if the guilt and unhappiness I feel will subside given time or whether it's best to start again afresh - even though I have been at university already for a number of years.
Could I perhaps change my way of being right now, and not dwell on my past results(last semester) even though these results affect my overall degree mark? Or would I need to start afresh to start from a clearer mind?
Thanks.
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Post by Martin Brofman on Apr 6, 2010 6:30:32 GMT 1
Bring yourself into the present and do what feels right for you now.
Getting your everyday life to work now, in the present, will have a positive effect on your eyesight.
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